I have not posted to this blog in nearly two years. A lot has happened. Most of it good, lots of it bad, but one thing remains the same: my obsession with my weight. I have just finished reading through all of my posts from 2010, the year I put myself through Hell, and there was a lot of my past journey that I didn't remember. Like seeing 113 pounds on the scale. I can hardly believe I was that small and so close to my goal... Goes to show exactly what I am capable of. I did it once, I can do it again. This time I've got more tools in my toolbox. Like a car. And money. And an 18th birthday in two days.
SO much has changed. I'm a model now. Or, at least I do some modeling. Mainly my feet, but I've got my first two nude shoots coming up a couple days after my birthday. I'm almost legal :) I can almost buy cigarettes. Oh, I broke Edge a while ago. I smoke, I drink, I fight, I have sex, I am a crazy woman. I have a lot of fun these days ;) Only thing missing is an extremely tiny body. We will work on this.
I'm a senior in high school now. Currently I'm skipping school, simply because I didn't feel like showing up, or I would weigh myself right now and tell you where I'm at. I'm in the 130's. Gross, right? I mean, I don't look terrible, but 130 is an ugly number. 120 is an ugly number...
Rebuilding a following will be hard, seeing as though most of the girls I used to commune with no longer post. I don't know what the Blogger community looks like these days. I guess it's time to rediscover. Now to figure out how... Stats and all to come soon.
