Failure, Anyone?

Yesterday was a total failure.
I'm not going to post my dailys for a while.
I'm scared my parents will find my blog.
My little sister saw that I have a blog.
If my parents ask her, she'll tell them.
I've got a drum lesson that I'm unprepared for.

I've been eating and eating and eating. I really don't want to start purging, or cutting just because I'm so frustrated with myself. It's so annoying that I can do so well, and in only a couple days go completely bezerk in the kitchen. I need to go on a camping trip. I need to just isolate myself in the Colorado desert with a tent, my dog, and my guitar. I need focus. I need strength. And Oi! Universe! I need a little freaking support here! I'm off to North Carolina next week, and I need a total cleanse so that I don't look like a fatty in my pretty little bikini. I'll take pictures. I just realized that I haven't put any photos of myself up here yet. If I do, and somebody by some miracle reads this, will you please scruitinize my every ripple and imperfection? It'd be great inspiration. I love this culture here. I love you girls, and I love the adventure we're all on. Stay hungry.