I know what I'm gonna do today!

I need to pick myself up some Flinstones vitamins or something, because I just took all the vitamins I'm supposed to take everyday (and haven't taken since I was 12) and it was AWFUL! I've still got that dry-gellatin taste in my mouth! Gag me...

Just got back from a 3-mile walk/run. It's 90 degrees here, and I kinda insist on wearing my black track jacket whenever I run... I dunno why, it just makes me feel more comfortable. My face is red and my stomach hurts sooo bad... I wanted to do 5 miles, but I felt like I was going to throw up, which would have been bad because a) I have a retainer that would really make my life miserable if I threw up unexpectedly, and b) I'd lose all of the vitamins that I took, and since they've been such a fucking nightmare today, I'd hate to have suffered for nothing.

Which makes a really good point.

Suffering for nothing is rediculous. With today's fast, I'm struggling so hard to keep it. But I'm not suffering for nothing. I'm suffering to be beautiful and for others to see me as beautiful. I WILL NOT blow today's fast, because I've already suffered thus far today, and all of it would be useless if I gave up now. That'll be my mantra when I just can't run anymore, or when I want that last slice of cake. "I refuse to suffer for nothing".